I've been running for six days straight
and I'm losing hold of reality
but I'm told it's never too late.
I want to control gravity
and I'm losing hold of reality.
They tell me I'm insane because
I want to control gravity.
Life's different than it once was.
They tell me I'm insane because
I express myself differently.
Life's different than it once was
and I'm unsure I can go back.
I express myself differently
and I'm often misunderstood
and I'm unsure I can go back.
My feet are becoming tangled
and I'm often misunderstood
but I'm told it's never too late.
My feet are becoming tangled.
I've been running for six days straight
i.
I'm not doing this so you will learn to love me. I'm doing this in hopes I'll learn to love myself.
ii.
I call it purging myself of sin but in reality it's just a shock of stomach acid sputtering up my esophagus leaving my throat in a burning wake and my eyes tearing up with toxins being removed from my body.
iii.
It's been over 24 hours since I last attempted to eat something and my appetite is slowly starting to fade away much like any hints of body fat I previously had. Water and cigarettes have been my 2 lifelines and they're the only reason my gears are still turning and I love the mixture of hydration with a constant nicotine hi
Anorexia Never Felt So Right by ksmsoccer89, literature
Literature
Anorexia Never Felt So Right
i.
I haven't eaten in days and I'm feeling a bit out of place, but no need to worry, we're just moving at a very different pace.
ii.
I tried telling you that I haven't been well and everything's coming to a standstill but you didn't seem to care as you just stood still and flicked aside my words like they were bullets aimed for your chest. You told me you didn't like talking about these things and I thought with me that maybe it would be different but I guess I'm nothing more than any other person that's passed you by. A hello, how are you like you give a fuck but you always leave before I can ever reply and I'm left whispering goodbye.
i
Just Hear Me Out? Click. by ksmsoccer89, literature
Literature
Just Hear Me Out? Click.
i.
Before I met you, I was a 100 piece puzzle still in its plastic covering. Now I'm down to 84 pieces and 2 corners are missing and I'm scared the next girl will give me one look and decide I'm not worth it.
ii.
You took out a 6 month warranty on me and I should have taken that as a hint but i never was good at the game Clue or reading bet thelines ween. You traded me in with 6 days left on your investment but they wouldn't give you a full refund because they realized I was no longer in mint condition. Truth is, I never was. You just have a knack for making my faults stick out more than my emaciated ribcage.
iii.
Tomorrow I think I migh
With no right or left, how can i know that what's left is what's right?
With no down or up, how can i be sure that what goes up must come down?
I'm left without any sense of direction and without gravity. My feet can't find solid ground and my words are left to float aimlessly.
If my words no longer make sense, then what does?
I once built a castle of thread made of silk and with awe everyone stared at what i had built.
It was shiny and tall and took hold of your eyes; it was beauty at its finest, no lies.
Then it was torn down by someone struck with greed, to build a bigger castle was their need.
They toiled at it for days and days turned into more than year, til a bigger castle did appear.
The top could not be seen from down below, so an elevator made of crystal was built to show.
I finally decided against my own will, to venture to the top to see what my eyes would spill.
To even begin to describe what my eyes did show, would be a failure, for the right wo
I'm Very EMOtional. Secret 30 by ksmsoccer89, literature
Literature
I'm Very EMOtional. Secret 30
Today was my sister's wedding and it was beautiful. I cried at the actual ceremony. I cried at the dinner afterwards and I cried during the father-daughter dance. I couldn't get myself to give a toast though because I knew I would bawl my eyes out. My sister and I may not always get along, but she has been a huge part of my life and I love her so much and am really happy for her. Well look there, my eyes are watering again.